Thursday, 10 December 2020
Title: Launch Out In Faith!
By: Cecilia Tan 陈俊芳
Psalm 40:2 “He brought me up from a desolate pit, out of the muddy clay, and set my feet on a rock, making my steps secure.”
This is a true story…my story! The year was 2012. I sank unexpectedly into a desolate pit and became a shadow of myself. My friendly and zestful persona was replaced by one plagued with an overwhelming gloom and unexplainable fear.
In early March 2012, after a 10-day stubborn cough, I saw the doctor and was prescribed very strong antibiotics which I had never taken before. When I was half-way through the course, my appetite disappeared into thin air and my taste buds completely changed. I became fearful of chillies when prior to this, I was a chilli queen! Soon I developed a phobia for food except for porridge (my comfort food) and a little steamed fish.
I gradually began to lose weight. That was a huge concern to me as I am one person who tries to put on weight but is never successful no matter how much I eat! Besides losing appetite, I was soon suffering a variety of symptoms including restlessness, anxiety, insomnia, dry throat syndrome, weakness, lethargy, loss of confidence, constipation and fear of the cold! I walked around the house like a zombie, and was hardly able to perform my normal tasks. Thankfully at that time, we had a live-in Cambodian helper who kept the household running smoothly.
I consulted three specialists from March to May 2012. Blood tests and scans were done and the results were all good! These three doctors must have thought their patient was imagining a lot of ailments even though I had informed them that I was inexplicably losing weight. In fact in that three months, I lost a precious 8 Kg!
Family members and other prayer warriors were in fervent prayer for my healing. I am most grateful for their prayer support, for indeed their prayers were answered and I was miraculously healed! This is how it happened…
Sometime in February 2012, my husband registered both of us for the church camp from 26-28 May. He registered early to get the early-bird discount. (We both love early-bird discounts… and discounts of any sort, the more, the merrier! 😆) On the morning of 26 May, I was still undecided about going to the camp, given all my many anxieties and fears. I worried about the hotel food, the hotel air-con and wondered whether I could endure the hectic programme with my very low energy level!
Camp participants were instructed to arrive in the hotel by 3pm on 26th May. On that morning, I was reading John 5:1-18 about our Lord Jesus healing the man who had been paralyzed for 38 years. Jesus had simply commanded him to “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk!” The man did so, was instantly cured and began to walk!
That same command “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk” kept ringing in my ears that morning. I somehow decided to ignore it as I rationalized that it had nothing to do with my condition as my legs were perfectly healthy and strong and I had no problems with walking!
After reading John 5, I decided to check my e-mail. I switched on my laptop and accessed my G-mail “Inbox”. Lo and behold! The first words I saw on the screen were “ LAUNCH OUT IN FAITH!” – it was the title of the most recent incoming mail, in capital letters! It seemed as if God was instructing me in plain and simple language, to put aside all my fears and just go to the camp! And so I did just that.
My husband drove us to Melaka for the camp. Our first meal at the camp was Saturday night buffet dinner. Wonder of wonders! – I dived into the sumptuous spread of food like my old hungry and healthy self again, as if to make up for the three months of deprivation, and to immediately seek to regain the lost weight! Every dish was awesomely tasty 😋… spicy curry, chicken, beef, fish, prawns, salads, desserts, etc etc! Going on my rounds at the buffet table, I certainly did not look like someone who had lost her appetite!
I enjoyed the camp thoroughly and my fears were certainly uncalled for! Upon returning home, my healing took off at a pace beyond my wildest imagination. I began to again enjoy eating a wide variety of food again and all the earlier symptoms gradually disappeared! Soon I was my cheerful, charming and vibrant self again, praise the Lord!
And so I was brought out from a desolate pit, out of the muddy clay, and had my feet set on a rock, making my steps secure, because I obeyed God’s command to “LAUNCH OUT IN FAITH!” Praise the Lord our God who heals in mysterious ways!
So if you ever find yourself in a similarly challenging situation, do reflect on the contents of Psalm 103:1-3,
“Bless the Lord, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases.”
Our Heavenly Father, we praise You for Your goodness and mercy towards Your children. We thank You for Your unfailing love which sees us through the darkest of times. Thank You that we do not walk through tough times alone for You always walk alongside us, strengthening us and keeping our hope alive. Indeed Lord, You move in mysterious ways, Your wonders to perform! We praise and thank You, in the name of Jesus. Amen.
那天早上，同样的命令 “起来！拿起你的褥子走吧！” 一直在我耳边回响。不知怎么的，我决定置之脑后；我合理化地认为它与我的状况无关，因为我的腿非常健康又强壮，而且我走路也没问题！
阅读了约翰福音5之后，我决定检查我的电子邮件。我打开笔记本电脑并进入我的谷歌邮箱G-mail的 “收件箱”。真没想到！我在屏幕上看到的第一句话是“凭信心出发！”（LAUNCH OUT IN FAITH!）这是最新收到的邮件的标题，都是大写的字母！这似乎是上帝在用简易明了的语言指示我，要我放下所有的恐惧，直去参加营会！因此，我就这样做了。